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Excerpt from a current project…

King Babysitter (Working Title)

 

 

12:45 We drive to Dr. Eichwalds oncology office in Beverly Hills, he’s vaping and the car fills with smoke like a Cheech and Chong movie. I open all the windows and he says, “oh god not you too, this is fine, it’s a vape, it’s not cancerous, the other companions are the same, you guys are pussies…’ I say nothing. The smell is disgusting, and my skin is getting an oily sheen. We park, get out and now he lights up a cigarette and is slurping the coffee loudly, we walk into the lobby of the medical building, he still has the lit cig. The security guard calmly tells him to put it out. He takes two big drags opens the front door and flicks it onto the sidewalk almost hitting a woman in a wheelchair. “Whoops,” he says sarcastically. Now we’re in the waiting room, he takes elephantine vape hits. The room is crowded with people, mostly elderly, it’s a small room and the vape clouds hang like a Manhattan beach marine layer in June. An old woman on a walker, wobbles her way up to him legitimately coughing and says, “please sir, I have an upper respiratory infection can you not do that here?” He takes another long pull off the extra-large vaping unit and as he’s blowing it out says, don’t worry this doesn’t cause cancer like cigarettes it won’t harm you. Just then the receptionist calls him in. He comes out and says he received a B-12 shot and a testosterone shot. He then says that he needs a testosterone shot because Serenity is too fat to fuck without dick pills or testosterone. He says this quite loudly and a couple of children are in the waiting room now, they turn their heads and look at him quizzically. A woman comes up to him and says, “really? are you kidding me? Can you watch your language?” He takes a massive vape hit and says, “What? It’s true. She may have an eating disorder. Are these your kids? You look great, your body is amazing for having all those kids.” He looks at me and whispers “Milf.” She looks at me, then looks back at him and says, “you are disgusting.”
“Let’s go, Stephen.” Hold on he says I need a Toradol shot. So now we wait for Dr. Eichwald to give the nurse clearance for Toradol shot – he keeps alluding to Dilaudid or Morphine and I tell him many times it’s not happening, that he will be in even more hellish pain then ever if he does. And he will just end up getting strung out again. Yeah, Yeah, he says. We leave. I just want to get back to the apartment. This guy is truly a fucking embarrassment. But he wants to stop and eat.

2:00 pm We arrive at Kings Road Cafe. He’s told 4 times not to vape or smoke in the restaurant, they threaten to kick him out, so he finally stops. He orders eggs and he’s slurping coffee and chewing his food loudly with his mouth wide open, and I mean really chewing his food. Other patrons are disgusted and seem to be spreading out in a diameter, moving to other tables and whatnot. He tells me he had stomach cancer years ago and he has to eat slow, and really masticate his food. He says that they built a pouch for him. He has a pouch for a stomach. He says he thinks they used parts of his bladder and intestines…hell, I think they even used part of my asshole. The place is small, and this guy speaks loud or louder than the volume of the room. I can’t eat. 7:00 pm is still 5 hours away.

2:45 we get back to the Apartment. He says he’s going to nap. 3:30 he’s sleeping in a mummy like pose on his back, his eyes are partially open. He looks dead. I walk closer. He’s breathing. But his eyes are partially open. It’s all very eerie.

5:00 He wakes up, and immediately makes a pot of coffee. This is the second pot of coffee today so far. He pours in about half a jar of Coffee Mate Vanilla Powdered Creamer. I imagine his ‘pouch’ just completely resonated with the Coffee Mate, it’s like vanilla cream spackle, even the parts of the pouch that were fashioned out of his asshole are fucked. I administered Suboxone and Lyrica and Gabapentin and he says he missed his 7:00 am dose of suboxone and needs that dose as well and said if he doesn’t remember nobody will. I immediately refer to previous notes on a group e-mail and see that he got his morning sub, he did. Then I also send a text to ask the overnight companion miles. He immediately texts me back with “HE’S LYING.” I tell him that he got it, and he must have forgotten. He flies into a rage. “You fucking people are the worst! I never got it, you’re fired I’m done with all this.” He’s a med seeker. I walk away. I walk out to the deck and he’s still screaming, you fucker you piece of shit I’m sick of all this I’m done with you people I leave the sliding door wide open. It’s summertime in California and I look out at into the pool area. Nice and quiet people are laying in the sun, swimming, playing with their children in the shallow end of the pool reading magazines and books just enjoying life. Stephen K is missing all of it because he’s stuck in the madness of addiction, want and need. He walks out to the balcony and continues the tirade. I sit there quietly while he continues his barrage of scorn insults ridicule and threats. You fucking people, HA! Sunnyside Companions, you’re all a joke You charge to keep people sober, that goes against everything AA is about the owner of that criminal enterprise you work for is a fucking con artist he ripped off all kinds of people. All eyes are on us now from the pool area and I don’t care. I say nothing. I get up and walk into the living room he walks in and says fuck off I’m leaving and walks into his room and slams the door. Now there’s a knock on the front door. I get up to go to the door I look through the peephole. Security guards. I let them keep knocking, I ain’t answering it. They keep knocking, “Hello, HELLO!?” He comes out of the room. “Aren’t you going to answer the fucking door,” I say nothing. He lets out a monumental sigh and he opens the door. They’re both strapped and look like no fuck around types. He asks them what they want. They ask if everything is OK. He Says, yeah except my sober companion says I got my suboxone at 7 am this morning but I know for a fact I didn’t. They cut him off, “Sir that’s between you and him.” Then him, “Well can you get him out of here?”
“Sir your Father’s name is on the lease, we’ve been through this before, call your father if you want him removed.” He then goes into this whole story about being an undercover cop. The security guards nod and tell him they have to go. He tells me I’m off to a bad start. Whatever, I say. He tells me we need to go out and buy more creamer.

5:45 We go to CVS; the vaping is non-stop. As we’re driving he calls Wayne on the speaker to find out about his living arrangements in Malibu. Stephen starts asking about the furniture and what not. “I want real shit, good stuff! Not Ikea or Living Spaces garbage, I want good appliances and cookware utensils and silverware! Not Bed Bath and Beyond bullshit, you hear me? It should be a beautiful place with plenty of indoor and outdoor entertaining space. There was a pause on the line. “Hello? Where the fuck is this guy?” He looks at me, I just shrug. Wayne says, “I’m right here Stephen, I’m just flabbergasted that you would even ask me these things AGAIN when your father and mother made it crystal clear that you are on a budget and Ikea Bed Bath and Beyond and Living Spaces is what it’s going to be, as far as cookware utensils and silverware are you fucking kidding me? Who are you? Gordon Ramsey? Fucking Emeril Agassi!? What are you gonna host elite dinner parties?! You’re lucky you’re getting anything! Fucking kidding me! You have been in thirty plus rehabs, 3 od’s in the last year alone! We are all done with you if this doesn’t work out. Stephen loses it, “Fuck you, you lackey! We were friends for years and now you are an assistant for my Dad and you are in cahoots with him to punish me! Your shit, you never made anything of yourself that’s why you have to suck the ass of the golden calf, MY FATHER! Wayne says fuck off and hangs up. He gets out of the car and walks towards CVS I follow. He calls Wayne (on speaker) as he walks into CVS. Wayne picks up, “WHAT STEPHEN!?”
WHAT!! WHAT DO YOU MEAN WHAT? Don’t you ever hang up on me again, you servant, you shlepper, you, you, SERF!! I’ll have you fired, tell my Mom and dad to gimme’ my shit! My Range Rover! My Diablo! My 1000 dollar a day! You better tighten up your attitude or I’ll have you fired fucko!” He’s throwing 5 or 6 coffee mate vanilla powdered creamer into the small CVS basket. Wayne hangs up again. “YOU MOTHER FUCKER!” “Stephen can we not do this here?” I ask
“DON’T tell me what to do!” An employee and a guard are walking quickly toward us. The guard looks like he has pepper spray in his hand. I say, “Whoa, whoa, all good man, dude was just having a disagreement on the phone, no need for pepper spray.”
“If you pepper spray me I will sue the whole CVS corporation!! My father is…” before he can finish the manager says, “Sir please just leave.”
“Not without my creamer!!” He says this the way a father would as if his child was being held captive. He’s escorted to the register, he pays, and we leave. The ride home is filled with thick seething resentment, anger and vape smoke. He’s stuck in it and I just need to get him back to the apartment. We get back he says nothing. The night shift companion Miles relieves me, and I can’t wait to leave. I go home to my wife. She has dinner made, she’s calm, she’s beautiful. I tell her the job is great. I can’t go into it any more than that. I’m in a financial position that quells my complaining…for now.

AWARD SEASON PT. 2

TBT ONE OF MY MANY SHITTY JOBS…

Rated R: For retardation, redundancy, rudeness, & rhetoric.

Let’s start off with the ‘glam squad,’ and the assistants to the ‘stars.’  These are people whose self-importance reigns supreme. They possess entitlement that depends on the proximity of the celebrity they’re sucking the ass of.

J-Lo’s people first; extremely dismissive, totally cheap.  They’ve been ordering all day and night and never tip, and are surly, contemptuous and angry. But most of Hollywood is just wolves in hipster clothing anyway.

Knock knock, ‘room service’

I get in the suite and they’re ordering me around all servant style.

First an agro pierced Chubby girl: ‘Um, yeah, hi or whatever, just quickly push the cart over there.’ She’s wearing skintight jeans and a sweater that shows every roll.

Me: ‘Ok’ I say, handing her the bill. Pushing the cart as slowly as possible.

Agro: ‘Ok so we’re gonna need all this other shit out of here, like yesterday!’ She says this while sweeping her hand on the air then points to a HUGE conference table that’s loaded with dirty plates, glasses, Perrier bottles, Fiji Bottles, et al. More than will fit on two or three carts. There are small flies and gnats en masse around the buffet. I have no cart or any way to remove all of it. (By the way delivering & clearing the room is usually a no-no, but this hotel is so incredibly fucking cheap they expect you to do all of that, two guys for eight floors.)

‘I’ll have to go get some carts for this.’

She says, ‘Oh my god! Can we call somebody and get those up here immediately!? We need this all CLEARED OUT!’

Now I’m fucking annoyed, ‘Nope. I have to go down and get them, give me 10 or 20 minutes and I’ll be right back.’

‘Oh my god! Okay, whatever!’

I left. I never returned to that room again. 

Let somebody else do it.

-At three o’clock we get a rush order for champagne and hors-d’oeuvres. A fancy word for quesadillas, deep-fried rock shrimp, chicken wings, and other less than big word worthy greasy goodness…and cheap champagne (Sharfenberger? Wtf is that?) I Rush the order up to the room, woman answers in what looks like a Met ball gown. The room is filled with people dressed to the nines, ‘Wow you all going to the Academy Awards?’

A couple of people laugh, and I here scoffing.

‘No love,’ she says. Gross. Please don’t call me love. Ever. 

‘Oh.’ I say.

‘We’re having a little Oscar gathering. Um, it’s a little more than just a party.’

‘Oh.’ I say. I hand her the bill. It’s 450.00 for a spread of garbage that you could have bought at a low-end grocery store and made yourself for about $114.00. She doesn’t tip. Of course, she doesn’t. None of these people do.

I’m drained from the sycophantic non-stop star fucking and the very idea that awards should be given for art. Especially ‘based on’ bullshit movies that are revisionist history. (I.e. American Sniper fuck that movie).

The orders keep coming, I continue my night and become a completely disinterested, disenfranchised, disassociated shell of a man. I think of moving to a third world country, and helping lepers or hair lipped children. Somewhere else, something else, somewhere, anywhere, but here. 

 

More Hotel Insanity

If you’re sick like just sniffly, well, the only reason why we care is that we don’t want to be around you. If you constantly verbalize your cold, flu, or allergies it’s really mundane and boring. Americans have some form of healthcare now! At this point in our current international climate, your little cold or allergies are whiny 1st world bullshit. No one truly gives a rats ass. And if they (the sick people enablers) cater and constantly kowtow to that shit, the little sickies are gonna’ leech on to that codependency and ride it into their golden years. I’ve seen it!

Anyway, so I deliver to a guy who orders quite frequently. This guy always has some story about his health. Mr. Harmon in 511. He has a different boy toy in the room every time I deliver an order. Most of them look like Santa Monica street hustlers. With their little backpacks and plastic bags of clothes and shit sitting on the couch.

Tonight’s delivery interaction;
I knock on the door. It opens, its dark, and smells like cheap stripper strawberry incense or oil.
‘How you doing Mr. Harmon?’
He’s about 6’2″ and really pale and bloated. He looks like Larry Bird’s estranged brother. And has an eerie fucking vibe to boot.
He throws his hands in the air theatrically.
‘Oh God, no Bueno! I think I caught a bad cold, Ramon is going to get me Theraflu.’ Ramon is grabbing his jacket and rushing out into the cold night.
‘I’m sure the concierge has it.’ I say.
‘No, Ramon loves to walk the streets. He’s been doing that for years.’ He turns on the light, I wish he hadn’t.

‘Listen I have this weird thing with my eyes, they keep going back-and-forth.’ He’s pointing at his eyes. ‘Have you ever had that?’ He’s moving his index finger back-and-forth between both eyes. I’m standing there watching this charade. Why oh why the fuck do I have to get a play-by-play of your present status Harmon? ‘We’ll have you?’ He asks again. ‘No Mr. Harmon. I’ve never had that.’
‘Hmm, yeah it’s a pretty unique thing. Well, the doctor gave me some promethazine, but I already took four Norco so I might not be good to mix them.’ Those were drugs that I used to use quite frequently, sick or not. ‘What would you do?’
Harmon asks. At this point, I’m in total ‘who gives a fuck’ mode. So I’m like, ‘Yeah go ahead and guzzle down the promethazine. You’ll get real drowsy and nod off, and then maybe your eyeballs will stop moving back-and-forth.’ He runs into the other room, ‘Hold on hold on,’ he says. Oh no, I just want to get the fuck out of here.

‘Mr. Harmon can you please sign the check?’
He comes running back with two small packages. ‘My housekeeper gave me these the other day. She gets them from some little bodega botanica place in East Los Angeles. They’re Mexican bath salts. Maybe these will help me.’
It’s probably not a good idea to drink the promethazine and then take the bath, right?’
‘Well unless never want to wake up.’ Which sounds like a great idea for either one of us at this point. ‘Ha ha ha. That’s funny.’ He signs and hands me back the bill. Well ‘pray for me by name!’ He says in a show tune like voice. I finally leave. I look in the checkbook, no tip. I feel like my spirit has been run over by a Stolen Cadillac Escalade.

Same night, two hours later. Simple order.
I’m delivering chamomile tea to a Mrs. Gordon, room 319. I’m taxed and tired.
I just want it to be over. Let this night be done. I knock.
‘Room service.’ No answer I lean in, I hear somebody scurrying around. I knock again. No answer, again I hear scurrying around. I knock louder. Still nothing.
‘ROOM SERVICE.’ Nothing. Jesus what the fuck. I kick the bottom of the door three times. ‘ROOM SERVICE!!’
‘Oh ok. Of course.’ I hear a droll voice say.

A frumpy depressed looking blonde 20 something opens the door. My intuition tells me another mundane, soul-sucking situation lies in my wake.
‘Just put the tray on the bed. Listen, I’m concerned. My sliding glass patio door won’t lock properly. Maybe you can take a look.’ I hand her the bill. She puts it down without signing it. That’s always a bad sign. I walk over to the door. It latches. No fuss no muss.
‘It’s fine ma’am.’ I walk towards the bill.

She looks over at the checkbook. ‘I finished a production job early, and I’m here for a couple of days. I’m so bored. What should I do? Don’t say the movies, Universal Studios or Disneyland. Those are stupid suggestions. I already got mad at the bellman for suggesting all that garbage.’ Her voice is high pitched like lee press on nails on a chalkboard, or metal patio furniture being pulled across concrete. I offer up museums, and exhibits, coffee houses, and quaint little hipster neighborhoods.

‘Boring. Boring.’ She says. ‘I need some action!’
‘Maybe go pick up an LA Weekly. You’ll find the back pages loaded with all kinds of activity.’
Her eyes lit up. ‘What are you talking about? Sex, S and M, sex clubs, prostitutes?’
That’s not what I’m talking about. God.’
I looked over at the bill, and made my way to the door. She signs it and is shaking her head.
‘I was talking about music venues, nightclubs, dance clubs. But hey, whatever.’ She growls at me and hands me the bill. I walk out. I’m done for the night. I’d rather fill catsup bottles or do some other form of side work then deal with these people. Just for tonight, I need to get my mojo back.

 

My days at the London Hotel were numbered. Essay #1

#2:00 AM London Hotel, West Hollywood.

I was walking the halls collecting trays, and picking up early morning orders left on doorknobs. As I made my way from floor to floor, I pondered all the decisions and wrong turns and I made in my life. Disastrous turns that led me up to my current position at 50 years old.

Sure, there were drug and alcohol incidents here and there, also some jail stints. There was also first-degree burglary, grand theft auto, possession of controlled substance as well as assault with a deadly weapons charges but all that was many years ago.

When I applied for this job, Jill Myers in human resources said The London was to do an intensive background check. Apparently, it wasn’t that intensive.

Truth be told, I lost all my hustle when I sobered up and I stopped doing hard drugs. Thank baby Christ I’m not permanently psychotic or paranoid. These thoughts were broken by a woman in a nightgown running and screaming coming down the hall straight towards me.

‘I left my key in my room, I left my key in my room! She looked distraught and flustered. At first, I thought she was dead on the reincarnation of Leona Helmsley, or the ghost of Leona Helmsley stuck in a Hell-like hotel purgatory.

Was it Leona? At 2 AM your mind really plays tricks with you. Think the Overlook Hotel but I’m way more passive Mr. Torrance.

‘Okay okay, ma’am. Ma’am, what is your name?’ This was the protocol. Simple enough.

‘What the hell does that have to do with it! Just let me into my room! That’s private information anyway!’ She seemed to be moving closer toward me. I started stepping backward.

‘Ma’am, I’m sorry I just can’t let anybody into any room without proper identification.’

Her eyes lit up, ‘Anybody, anybody? Into any room? I’m Sofia De Aragon and I’ve been staying at this hotel on and off since it was The Belage! How dare you!’

A door in front of us opened and a guest popped his head out. He took one look at Mrs. De Aragon and quickly went back to his room and shut the door.

‘That’s right! You mind your business!’ Sofia said as he bolted the door.

Suddenly I felt like a scolded eight-year-old. ‘Okay okay, I’m sorry. What room are you in? ‘Well that’s just it, I don’t know what room I’m in. They used to put the room numbers on the key, how the hell are you supposed to remember what goddamn room you’re in?’

‘Well, I guess we’ll have to call the front desk.’

She looked angry, ‘Well where is that god damn phone to even call them? We’re on the eighth floor! Do I have to run downstairs?’

I started moving towards the lobby of the eighth floor, I knew there was a phone there. I had to get away from this woman. I felt like she had stuck an invisible straw into my chest and was sucking the very last bit of life that was left in me. It had to stop. I picked up the phone. ‘Hi it’s Mike, In-room-dining attendant, I have a Mrs….’ I looked up at her, ‘Ma’am your name?’ She shook her head and whispered, ‘give me the phone, give me the phone.’

I attempted to walk away. Let them come up and let her into her room, or figure out what room she’s in. I just couldn’t do it anymore.

‘Hey where are you going? I’m in room 416 you need to let me in.’ We were both on the 8th floor. I don’t even know how she ended up on this floor. You need a room key to use the guest elevator to go from floor to floor. Which I don’t even have. And I was told under no circumstances were guest allowed to use the service elevator. I walked towards the phone called the front desk again. I hung up. Then I explained the situation to her and that she would have to wait here while somebody came up from the front desk.

She was flustered and upset ‘Why can’t you just let me in?’

‘Ma’am if you don’t have your room key we can’t get down the elevator to your floor, I don’t have access to that elevator with the key that I have.’ We both stood there looking at each other for a moment, but it felt like an eternity.

‘Well that’s absurd, what kind of bullshit operation are they running here?’ I walked away. She was saying things to me as I was walking away. They can fire me, they can discipline me, they can do whatever they want. Bottom line, I was not talking or looking at this woman for another fucking minute.

Suicide Pros Inc. 

I’m Steve Marsden. I’m the owner-operator of Suicide Pros™.  (Patent Pending – soon I hope to have hats, shirts, and coffee mugs.)

So a couple of years ago I was wrought with suicidal ideations. Just this insatiable obsession to commit suicide, I tried with the old hose in the exhaust pipe, got to coughing like I had tuberculosis and quickly exited the car. Main reason for this attempt, I was distraught saddened by the death of my cocka-a-poodle “Fleming.” In my grief, I did a horrific amount of drugs, drank copious amounts of alcohol, hell I even went on a sex tour to Thailand. But nothing could fill the empty hole that the passing of Fleming left. I called a couple of different suicide hotlines.

I found them very trite, mundane and just outright insincere. The anger and intolerance I was experiencing while talking to these ‘suicide professionals’ actually saved me from killing myself. I went from suicidal to homicidal in just minutes. Then it came to me. Maybe people need to be angered and pissed off in order to turn their thoughts from suicide? Maybe that whole tender loving care thing was the wrong approach. Maybe people need to be put in check. Especially first world shitters that have everything they want and need, and basically just complain and are sad because their souls are so empty and they have nothing but material belief in their cockamamie little minds.

Let’s face it, the dead western soul is the reason for the dead western mind, which is no doubt the springboard for suicidal ideations. Whoa, how’s that for some shit bird street philosophy. So but anyways I volunteered at a couple different suicide hotline locations, they fired me. Anyway it was voluntary and I needed to get paid, plus they didn’t like my style. Apparently I was to ‘confrontational.’ So I started my own suicide hotline.

So far no one has offed themselves, and I’ve got three and a half stars on Yelp, but even the bad reviews are good because the bottom line is they didn’t kill themselves. My confrontational style and sincere lack of care (based on the fact that you’re somebody I don’t even know) has created a business model that has turned the suicide hotline business upside down! One survivor (who called Suicide Pros™ many times) even gave me a room to live in her house. I’ll call her Margaret for the sake of anonymity. She’s one of these old ‘Sunset Boulevard’ type broads.

Her resentment and anger of not being the young vivacious screen gem of yesteryear brought on suicidal ideations that even a contract from Louis B. Mayer couldn’t lift. I put her in her place, and I told her who she was, where she was, and it was time to give up all that bullshit maybe take an improv class, or do standup comedy, or tell the stories of yesteryear on The Moth or some other bullshit public forum. Live for now and stop all this whiny old starlet horseshit. It worked. She has an improv troupe (The happy old shit heels) that tours the country and they’re all 60 or 70 somethings.

People love them because they’re real and they act their fucking age, they get lots of laughs at all the childish games that they constantly come up with. I get a lot of schmucky little millennials calling me as well. Sad or angered over mommy and daddy’s divorce, being bullied at school, or not even being able to reach the next level in some shitty video game. Hey whatever the case, they need to get put in check as well. Sometimes I threatened to do a three-way call with their parents (like I even have the parent’s number). So for $49.95 (PayPal only 5 day guarantee) Suicide Pros™ is your best bet for value, to save your life, and to start anew, or leave the planet with a clear conscious.
Real enrichment. Check for our (Tell me why I don’t like Mondays) special.