I burned down the backyard
And just stood there
Transfixed by the flames
I pissed on my parent’s artwork while standing on their antique chair
I stole my best friends prized matchbox set
I crept into my mother’s and father’s room while they slept
I stole all they’re money and their car
Then drove to Mexico in a blackout
I told the 8th-grade teacher to shove that bullshit history book up her ass
I got a referral to the principal and was swatted in the ass with plexiglass for questioning patriotism and history and an imposed system of ignorance
I carried a loaded gun because they were coming
And then when they came I realized I forgot the gun
I was on a72-hour psyche hold in 4 point restraints and shot full of Haldol. Swore I’d never be there again, and I was there again and again
I was busted with possession of drugs and paraphernalia and sat in jail, and couldn’t wait to get out and not even have a clue I was going to do it again. Over and over again
I’ve been angry, homeless walking the streets in Anytown, USA.
Totally convinced, truly believing, it was everybody else’s fault
I walked the streets until my feet had blood blisters, but never left a square block radius
I broke into so many apartments in the complex I lived in that I could only leave the apartment at night out of sheer paranoia
I drank and drove so drunk that I had to cover an eye to stop seeing double, again, and again and again
I’ve heard at least 2 dozen people say they’ll never drink or use again
Then just hours, days, weeks, months, or years later, they overdose or drink themselves to death
I looked loved ones in the eyes and promised something, and just knew deep down I was going to break their fucking heart